Monday, December 29, 2008

Far Beyond Driven

Frank Mir beat Antonio Noguiera fir the UFC Interim Heavyweight title last night, it what was supposed to be the toughest challenge of his career.

Frank Mir, who 4 years ago was in a horrific motorcycle accident, and was told he would never fight again.

He worked through some serious adversity, some very lackluster fights, and alot of personal demons. Then, last year, a better Frank Mir showed up and beat Antoni Hardonk, then in February of this year, he beat Brock Lesnar in what was for some reason thought to be a huge upset.

And last night, he showed up in the best shape of his career (even before the accident) and beat Noguiera, relying mainly on his standup, which was thought to be his weakest point.
Now sometime early next year, he gets to fight Brock Lesnar again, who since his loss to Frank Mir, went on to beat Heath Herring, and then a returning Randy Couture for the UFC Heavyweight Championship. The winner of tis fight will be the undisputed UFC heavyweight title. My money is on Frank Mir (quite literally, if I can find a place to bet lol)

My point being, I am a lazy fuck. I've used the metal plate and 18 screws in my leg as an excuse not to be as active as I used to be. Never really outwardly putting it forth as an excuse, but in my head, it was always there. That little bitch of a thought that told me it was ok to be a lazy fuck, because I probably couldn't handle the kind of active lifestyle I was used to living anyway. That little bitch of a thought that told me doing just enough to get by was ok. That little bitch of a thought that somehow rationalzed being close to 80 pounds overweight.

Well fuck that.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Wow, I've been slacking.

But to be fair, the last month or so hasn't really been inspirational, and most anything I couldve written about would have been mostly negative. Although, most of the negative makes the cut for this blog, so in hindsight, I should've just written about it as it happened.

On 11/23, my grandmother, Joan Wetzel died. She was 76 years old. She died at home, and not in pain, which his how she wouldve wanted it. It was sudden and unexpected. She will be greatly missed.

(*note:anything else negative seems almost trivial by comparison, and in reality it is. the worst part about the other negative is that it dragged on for almost 2 months, and was more of a major annoyance than anything else*)

So, the company I worked for providing Emergency Services here at IBM, Grubb and Ellis, lost their contract. The new company, Wackenhut, took over 12/1. We found out about the take over probably around the middle of October. And then didn't hear anything from Grubb and Ellis about relocation within the company, or from Wackenhut about their retention goals, for close to 2 weeks.

At first we were all leery of Wackenhut. We've hear, and researched, horror stories and found most of them to be based in fact. This amplified the uneasiness we already had since we still hadn't heard anything.

We all finally went for our Wackenhut interviews, and some of our fears were subsided whilenew concerns rose. The high point for me is that got a 2 dollar an hr pay increase and now make $16.50 an hour. Grubb and Ellis found some positions, then opened temporary positions for any one who wanted them, but I went with Wackenhut because I need the guarantee of a job, not the prospect of one.

So far the transition is working out allright. I work 3rd shift so its always easy going. I am working a shit ton of overtime right now while we get the new people trained. Time will tell with Wackenhut I guess. All of us (the 6 that were here before Wackenhut took over.) are pretty much all looking over our shoulders right now, cuz its hard to know what to expect with so many new people at once.

Taylor and I are doing great, as always. She and I and a bunch of friends are going to see Avenged Sevenfold in AC on 12/12. Can't wait for that. then on 12/14, I'm going to see the Jets play the Bills!!!!

So yeahh. I'll try to update more often.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

One day, in a perfect world.....

I'll have a job that doesn't offer insane amounts of overtime, that way I won't be subliminally coerced into exhausting myself for extra pay.

Then I remember that I want to be a Paramedic.


On to other things. Game 5 of the World Series is tonight. Again. I do have to retract my previous statement though. I actually do care bout the series now. I hope the Phillies win. I think they shouldve won to tell you the truth. That game could have been called at the end of the 5th, and the Phillies would have won. Not very exciting, but the weather called for it. But no, the umpires and grounds crew waited, with probably more than a little suggestion from the commissioner, and look at that they delay the game after the Rays tie it. Then it gets suspended, then the suspended game gets postponed, and now its tonight.

The final season of The Shield on fx is amazing so far. I think there is only 4 episodes left. I'm gonna miss that show, Good thing for DVDs.

I need a nap. Seriously. 7 0 clock rolls around, and I am gonna disappear til like 11 or 12....it'll make staying here til 3 am just a little more bearable.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

2008 Concert List V5.0

Here's the list so far:

1/04/08- ROB ZOMBIE, In This Moment- The Chance, Poughkeepsie NY

2/11/08- DOWN-(no opening acts) The Chance, Poughkeepsie NY

3/22/08- ROCKSTAR TASTE OF CHAOS TOUR: AVENGED SEVENFOLD, Atreyu, Bullet For My Valentine, Bless the Fall, (also, 3 Japanese Metal bands that do not warrant being named)- The Armory, Albany NY

4/14/08- JACK'S MANNEQUIN, Eric Hutchinson, and a band who's so not worth mentioning that I don't even remember their name- The Chance, Poughkeepsie NY

8/02/08- ROCKSTAR MAYHEM FEST: SLIPKNOT, DISTURBED, Dragonforce, Mastodon

8/16/08- ROCKSTAR MAYHEM FEST: SLIPKNOT, DISTURBED, Dragonforce, Mastodon

8/28/08- PARAMORE, JACK'S MANNEQUIN, Phantom Planet- Rumsey Playfield Central Park, NY

9/28/08- JUST SURRENDER, Danger Radio, Farewell, Brighten, Red Car Wire, Set On Site- The Chance, Poughkeepsie NY

10/04/08- SECONDHAND SERENADE, Thriving Ivory, Corey Lamb, I Hate Kate- The Chance, Poughkeepsie NY

much more to follow!!!

Friday, October 24, 2008

Let the blogging begin

So here I am with yet another blog site....though to be fair I hardly blog on myspace or facebook, and rarely ever to I blog on livejournal anymore....so hopefully I will just condense it all into this one. maybe. If I ever use this one that is.

Anyway. Saw V. Came out today. I want to see it. In a plan brilliantly conceived by Adam last night, he is going to buy the first 4 on DVD. Then on payday, I'm gonna buy some alcohol. Then, we are going to proceed to get drunk and watch all 4. Sounds like a plan.

Seriously though, Saw V is at the top if my movies list right now.

Being stuck here at work, I begin to see the futility of it all.


So, with the possibility of less than 5 of us staying, the rest of us are all kind of up in the air about what to do. I have the opportunity to stay with Grubb and Ellis, working basically a customer service job. I'd get a pay increase and keep my benefits, and time in company, which is great. The problem is me doing customer service. Answering phones, dispatching the maintinence people, and whatever the hell else they do over at base 4. Part of me thinks, screw that, $16.50 an hour working for a BS company looks better than that. Then I remember how crappy Wackenhut really is and I am forced to reconsider once again. There's a couple of other options. Take a severence from Grubb and Ellis, and go work commercial EMS full time. Thats up there on my list. Why not? If I knew exactly what the severence was going to be, I'd be better informed on that decision, but we've heard 2 or 3 different possibilities. So, all in all, its probably going to be at least another week or two until all of the information is out on the table and I can finally make an informed decision. So that's another 2 weeks of wondering where I am going to work after November 30th.

(*edit: most of the jobs we thought were available with Grubb and Ellis proved to be nonexistent at this point in time, and there were serious doubts as to what would open in january. only 3 people, not counting our bosses, were offered permanent positions with Grubb and Ellis. The rest were offered temporary posiions for 1 month in hopes that something will be open by the end of that month)

I feel like this is the closest that the universe has gotten to making me play by its rules. I usually do whatever I want, regardless of consequence, and really don't worry about anything. I'm generally easy going, laid-back, carefree, and not tolerant of the BS most other people deal with when the universe decides that its their turn to get fucked. Now all of a sudden I'm worrying about this crap instead of just making the decision and moving on. WTF.

The World Series...tied at one game apiece for The Rays and the Phillies. Does anyone care?